a peek through;

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

di be strong di be strong.you got to.
& it'll all get better in time.

sneezed in your face at 11:00 PM

today,another round of nonsense shit.
yes,patience level running superbly low.
and tempers are flaring.
its eating everyone inside.

voluntered to the workroom when none of us knew where.
and to the 2 guys thanks eh.run upstairs like got marathon isit?
and the chore for the day was flattening glued cardboard boxes.
yaya,no brainer.

RIGHT!

frigging hard okay with i think cap gajaah kinda glue they use.
couldnt tahan try to pry the top open and i kick the boxright smack in the middle.
then maha embarassment, my leg got stuck in the box.
shoe and all.
all at the staircaselanding.

then again whats life without embarassment mah right?

breakdfast at chaichee.
baru satu hari,menu dier fooyooooh.
and all i was thinkg was cholesterol cholesterol.
dnt roll your eyes okay.TSK.

as always i had the honour of gg to the cashier to pay(not my moolah).
alaa.sambil menyelam,cuci mata.WOOPS!
with recipt and spare change in hand,
went back to the table.dengan confidentnye
''kay this time i pay okay...tkpe..skali sekalerr jerr"

didnt realise it wasnt just them who heard okay.
yalah muker saden everythng all PER want to pay.ME?
haiyerh pegidaaah.
GOSH.malunye!

ohwells,whats new.
ok im dne.

sneezed in your face at 10:25 PM

i want my bestie back.physically and emotionally.even if she doesnt care anymore i think.i dont know.i really dont know.it all boils down to a nod or a brief word nowadays.im not forcing you to tell me everything if you dont want to.you have new friends to do that with.i just want to know whats wrong.

all i can afford is idk.so please stop asking.i have no idea why theres nomore norfi *looks the otherside* diyanah anymore.idk. and if yuo feel bad abt it.think how id feel.no issues no explanations nothing.well done ah.

sneezed in your face at 9:25 PM

Sunday, July 27, 2008

DRAMA;episode 3

the scene?right here in my carpark.

actually i dread leaving this place behind.its 2 yrs already i got so used to the strong winds that make hantu noises whenever it hits the window.tk bedek okay.i got so used to the slower pace here.Dont ask me how slow.Just sloweeer than woodlands area where everythings a rush.Knowing that the beach is only next door itself is calming enough.Its comforting to know you actually have a place to retreat and laze the afternoon away.Well,even if i can count with my fingers the times i actually go there in a year, its a home i wouldnt want to exchange for anything.

Yes,there are the downfalls like having to travel 3 hours to anf fro from school,always to
curb my anger to ayah so that he wnt not send me to school and definitely
sharing a room with 3 lagi-anoyying-dari-kakak-dier kiddos who neever fails to get on my nerves with their messy habits.the good side?i dont have to sleep alone.Admittingly,i am very the pengecut nak mampos.How extreme you wouldnt want to know lah.But living or leaving this place is not my choice and 68% who is living here would have agreed.

That means 12% doesnt want to leave.Yes,we all know you dont want to but the least you could do was play nice.Siape suruh bukak mulut besar besar?Siapa suruh tunjuk perasaan?.Siapa suruh all talk no action?Kan skrng dah kene.

apparently now,theres so many cars being scratched by their own neigbours.cruel but nice.
nice for me lah.so much drama know.hearing them bitch about one another sungguh cool,

SecurityGuard;Mr Chew punye kerete kene scratch tuari
ayah;dier pon kene???dier park kat mane?
securityGuard:Kat situ ejer.*points to the spot exactly opp ayahs car*
Ayah:KAT SITU?

Ayah;eh tu kan isteri Mr TAn
mama;mane?tadi yg kat kedai peter?
Ayah;ah ah yg tadi kiter baru pass by
Mama;keret dier pon kene calar?!!

should have seen his disbelief.all i did was giggle by the side lah.
i dont call the above bitchinglah but tehres more convos but im just lazy to typed out.
how adults now bitch kire sophisticated lah in hush hush all padahal padahal eh.Sampai bini-bini orang sumer masuk.haiyaah.

kalah mak joyah eh AIN?
=DD

sneezed in your face at 10:01 PM

Friday, July 25, 2008

Either he's blind
or he cannot tahan
or i think he's just confuse.

anyone up for charred otah and crysanthemum tea for brunch?
Sakinah and i are freeeeeee.:))

sneezed in your face at 1:11 PM

nerve-wrecking.
surprise surprise,he's coming along too.
now my future lies in every word that she says.
aaaaaaaaaah!

sneezed in your face at 8:56 AM

Thursday, July 24, 2008

thursday.
That's how time flieeeeeeees.

A week ago,there was so much drama happening,emotionally exhausting and definitely mentally draining.I was fortunate to not be there physically to witness it all.That doesnt mean i got to turn a deaf ear (or eyes in this case) but still,i didnt had the privilege to experience it first hand.What i'd say?PHEEW.

Coincidence or not both cases i wasnt in.I was out enjoying some peace and tranquility.Wishing this temporary nonsense will all be worthwhile,that it'll be a lesson to all.Now that everythings allright i have fairy ~~grand~~godmother to thank for.Its her that makes tomorrow a day to look forward to with a little thing called love waiting patiently in a safe haven.

Temperamental wise,im still learning on how to control them and at best ill just shut it.That doesnt mean you could pijak my kepala la.Its called limitations,darling.

So definitely i was disgusted,appalled.What atrocious behaviour.The cheek of you being persistent.Trust isnt something you could buy with you arse.Not with a thousand rupiah you cannot.Where the hell did you shove your ethics,boy?

have a casual chat,away from the pitter patter
with someone you adore
over curry os.
its serene.

sneezed in your face at 8:33 PM

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Racial Harmony 2008

it was a pooper okay.

POOOOOOOOOOPER.

it was a huge contrast between sec school

where almost everyone wants to wear.

Blame the sucky school

with Pe lessons and soo many rules.PFFT.

no one was semangat jubs

and only me,nurul,saiful and su wore.

Norfi and Hairil,TSK.

seelah no complete photo in trad costumes.

PICTURES!

MALAY CLASS!

apparently we,re 'supposed' to be doing kefahaman.

The one in green is my malay teacher okay.yes very the young.

and very the mentel like us.

''cikgu,niari dating makan rojak tak?''

i hope she doesnt read this!

=D

see,told ya.ambik gambar pon happy cikgu.-__-

wati.hidayah and qais.

talk to ma haaaand!

nurul muker stress.heeee.

norfi and nurul.

HOHO.Nurul wishing for what nurul?:)

what kefahaman is this??

scene dramatised!

saiful;)

woah.every time.mesti ada gambar ini punya.

stop it eh hairil.stop it.

nurul got angry her camera prefer me.HMPH.

Shoutout;SAIFUL! We all prefer the new you okay.like reaaaally.

the company and dinner was fun.Get well soon!

okay dah.

more pictures next entry!

take care everyone.

sneezed in your face at 10:02 PM

Sunday, July 20, 2008

First try; a score of 2050
Not bad okay.Seeing that its my first time and when online games aren't my forte.oh wait.whats my forte again?hmmmmmmmm.NEH.too many to mention.

The score stood at:
Me;2050
Afiq yadiy;400
Ayah ;1700
Atiqah;900
Shahira;600

Now the scores stands at:
Afiq Yadiy;2255
Me;2250
Ayah;1700
Shahira;1200
Atiqah:900

aaargh!Sense my frustration cn??measly 5 marks and im tops!
petty petty.but hey!it comes with bragging rights and when ur tops the kiddos will bragg for you.
i dnt mean brag brag but braaagg while screaming at the top of their lungs.

kiddos;HAHA!kakak first! YOU MUST GET HIGHER THAN KAKAK!(repeat that more than thrice)
ayah; nooo.its a fluke la.the counter count wrongly la.

TSK.sore losers.

i wnt back down for second placing.
yeah adik,be prepared.
ur going down!

The battle begins now.

sneezed in your face at 6:49 PM

Crashed RP with some of the babes last friday.
The rest who couldnt make it theres one gatehring next week.
Details have yet to be confirmed.
Best lighting.where else?the loo!

The flower really made my day okay.Its the simplest thing in my life that make me count my blessings.Thanks love!

I have no idea what Su's looking at??huh SU?kau tgk apa?

This wasnt the pre planned pose.tapi tkpelah.

The look on ur face were priceless lah bestie.we waited for her back to turn before serbu-ing her class screaming''SHIRIIIIIN!''.

Chilled at cafe esplanade where the waffles and brownie ice cream were daarn cheap!

Our legs were too worn out we had to depreive this kiddo from riding the car.sorry!

Friday was spent havinglunch with norfi dearest.what a bestie i have.we got worried over the same thing only at different time but still in a course of a day.At times its freaky how we could say the same thing and the same time but in this case im glad we shared our worries only to realise we,re brooding over the same matter.((;

Late afternoons were gatherings with the babes and boy is Rp huuuuuge!Only that i feel sorry for the architect who build the campus.He obviously has a dull life judging from the colour of every building.oorr maybe they wanna save on paint?*shrug shoulders*

still,the company was priceless.

thanks love for the flower;

thanks babes for the never ending laughter;

for story sharing;

for being able to meet up;

for reliving ol' sec school days by opening my toilet door while i was still inside!;

for all the hugs;

and for spending a day with me.

There is nothing worth the wear of winning, but laughter and the love of friends."

-- Hillaire Belloc

sneezed in your face at 2:36 PM

Thursday, July 17, 2008

Listening compre?check!

4 hours break was....restless.now i know how poly students feel with 4 or 5 hours break.
somehow time flew fast with nurul and shuhadah as company.Surfed the net for dresses and we kept on laughing and laughing over nonsensical clothes.you have no idea what they sell over the net!you know,i know lah eh babes.

Made our way to container class and turns out we had to wait half and hour till the whole thing starts.last yr fiza o played hadi mirzas song and automatically all eyes went to shirin.Shirin ingat tk?this yr fiza o just haaaaad to putarkan lagu taufik batisah.eh acoustic version knw! ooooooh.had a very perasaaan moment and started feeling feeling sing to next door neighbours azizah and ainon aaaand habibah,apelagi dorng layankan eje lah,standard!

the comprehension was okay i guess?some qs had no real answers i just hope ill get it right.
again much appreciated all the well wishes even if it was listening compre , not as bigger weightage as the written paper itself.

please please after so many fridays cancelld
please make tomorrow happen.
i really hope itll happen .
like finally.
:))

sneezed in your face at 10:13 PM

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

timecheck;11.32pm

OHNO!

GP presentation is only few hours away only and we,re not done!
*breathes in and out*

Its okay people we'll bullshit our way through okay?

and Malay listening compre at 430 tomorrow!

not being prepraed is so unreassuring.but what preparation can i do besides digging my ears??pfft.

Thanks for the well wishes,much love.

sneezed in your face at 11:32 PM

Monday, July 14, 2008

Racial Harmony.

its coming again this friday and yala i very smangat jubs but its cos im excited knw.

This year its with a new bunch of friends.

so norfi i know you,re reading this do me a favour and pls dnt wear your uniform!

Here are some pictures i found which are dated a year ago.

This is Ranjini.Super kecoh like one mak bedah okayy.i looove her to bits can.

Babes if you're reading this her open house during deepavali.yes wait long long lah in 3 months time.

and HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY!!

Ain and Harrith.I bonded with Ain like for the first time during dewi's chalet .got to know the other side of her.i hope you,re happy working dear.Please make it for the next outing.and err to Harrith?ya i believe that cina girl your girlfriend la.i belieeeeeeve.

Izzati!

been meeting her quite a number of times coincindentally lah and i miss our talks and gossips every morning otw to school babe.GAAAAHS.

DEWI!

Strive hard for os kay sayang.yes i knew abt your breakdwn moment and yes i miss you babes loads too.=((

NYAAAAH!

i say bedaaaah.mentang-mentang kawan baru kau ciner sumer bey tanak skolah ah?

saper ajar bilang aku?haha.

=D

Lastly my bestie ah .gambar classic man.rambut lawaa nampak?HAHA.woaaaah everyones busy in poly.still, thanks for being there for me.i love you.aiyo now i sound like a lesbie.HOHO.

thats how much i miss all of em.

i didnt post the pictures of the rest cos i cnt get hold of them la.

so do send it to me if you have any pictures of us okay babes.

DIAN!pls get the plannign done soon this gathering is much anticipated hor.

till then,nights everyone.

sneezed in your face at 10:27 PM

choices.
we all have to make them.

i hope you really really think about it carefully.what matters most now is going to a place where your strengths are being focused on.Of course i'll miss you but thats life i guess.Leaving us all behind after many months its hard but im sure im sure you'll find new friends whom you really be comfortable with.I'm just a call away and your other friends too.So dear friend,please make a wise decision and ill see you for the last time tomorrow.

sneezed in your face at 9:47 PM

Friday, July 11, 2008

Mariah carey- through the rain

When you get caught in the rain
with no where to run
When you're distraught and in pain without anyone
When you keep crying out to be saved
But nobody comes and you feel so far away
That you just can't find your way home
You can get there alone
It's okay, what you say is

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith

And I live one more day and I make it through the rain
And if you keep falling down don't you dare give in
You will arise safe and sound, so keep pressing on steadfastly
And you'll find what you need to prevail
What you say is

And when the rain blows, as shadows grow closed don't be afraid
There's nothing you can't face
And should they tell you you'll never pull through
Don't hesitate, stand tall and sayI can make it through the rain
And stand up once again
And If I live one more day

And I can make it through the rain (Yes you can)
You will make it through the rain

The song i used to sing with partner in crime,Dian Kamelia

when we're badly unmotivated due to physics results

when we're heading towards olevels.

you and the rest are dearly missed.=(

sneezed in your face at 9:19 PM

Wednesday, July 09, 2008

its been such a very very long time ,
since im being tested in this kinda situation.life is not a bed of roses.thoguh so far it has been for me until now.i realise God could test you anytime and even more when u least expects it.and the best thing is everything just had to happen in the course of a day.what a way to start the new week,new term eh diyanah?some things are inevitable while the rest was avoidable and all i could do is pray everything is gg to be alright.

them fighting.alaa whats new?only this time it was longer than i think it would and i couldnt have ended more spark to the fire,really.it was spur of the moment and at the time you were really being unfair.and its always you who has to create all sorts of unhappiness.i hope you realise that we all love you and we do not understnd why this keeps on happening.it affects us children even when we,re pretending we dont know anything is happening and we dont show it but deep inside we are hurt too.im not playing the blame game here but we all know who is the one taking all your shits and tantrums with patience i must add.facing it everyday for the past weeks has already been emotional draining what more with patience.thats the reason why you are the one i look up to for undying support,for your patience in handling all sorts of situation and you're the one who never fails to put us children in your prayers everyday.i love you mom.pleeaaase be strong for us,we need you.

its not been a smooth ride for me too when fickle fickle fickle minds meets unpredictable emotions.thats enough to show we're not ready.maybe you claim you are but im definitely sure i am not.That one time i really really needed you for only you had face what im gg through and you didnt show the littlest concern.well done friend.Im not expecting sympathy but it really shows so much.its even mre frustrating when you can't read in between the lines though i dont show it.i tried to understnd.im not perfect myself thats why i dont always speak my mind because i dont want to hurt anyones feeling.ive had enough of all the reasons and the excuses.i am sorry and thank you for everything and for that decision that made everything worthwhile.i know where i stand.and i hope it stays that way.

RESULTS!
omgosh.alhamdulillah it wasnt as bad as i had imagine.For geog it was worse.The subject that most of us had put most effort in it and all I got was an S. 1 frigging mark to and E and hopefully the class assignments will pull me through.im saying my results except for geog hadnt been as bad because i had expect a U for most of my subs.(say U please not ungraded.tsk).Expecting a U not because i didnt study but hairil said it was mediocre studying and even if my heart and soul was into it my expectations would still have been low.thats how low my self-esteem is and not saying im proud at it but at times i got to face up to the fact and work upon it.Thats why POA was a shocker.Got through with the skin of my ass with a D.thank god for like I said this subj was the most unexpected one.The rest has yet to be finalised though i hope itll wont bring me down for the promos.

i couldnt have pulled through without my dearest cousins,besties,friends like hairil,nurul,hafiz and maksu.For always being concern and being there when i need the shoulder to cry on.i can never thank you guys enough.

& im sorry genggongs for the last minute cancelled date.
you know,i know the real reason why.
im really sorry.
next time lah eh.

thats it for now and yet again no redang pictures
because the cd i was given could not be read.pfft.

take care everyone!

sneezed in your face at 12:22 AM

Monday, July 07, 2008

im disappointed,really.
that was really uncalled for.
and the reaction wasnt the least bit remorse.
i was left speechless.

is this the start of a rollercoaster gone wrng?
i hope not.

after a yr,i actually tried to give it a shot.
i realised then ive finally moved on.
so then this shld be a new book with new stories to unravel
with many more pages to write on.

but then the happiness was shortlived
with too many authors with different
storyline at that.
whether the book ends with a fairytale ending
or at the least finish writing
is another whole different story.

sneezed in your face at 9:52 PM

I don't find the rationale of all this.
As long as i follow my heart,i know i dnt want to,for now.
And i wnt make allowances just for the sake of it.
Ill stick to what i hold and believe in.
im sorry.

and they wonder why people become gay.
HEH.

sneezed in your face at 12:32 AM