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Wednesday, July 09, 2008

its been such a very very long time ,
since im being tested in this kinda situation.life is not a bed of roses.thoguh so far it has been for me until now.i realise God could test you anytime and even more when u least expects it.and the best thing is everything just had to happen in the course of a day.what a way to start the new week,new term eh diyanah?some things are inevitable while the rest was avoidable and all i could do is pray everything is gg to be alright.

them fighting.alaa whats new?only this time it was longer than i think it would and i couldnt have ended more spark to the fire,really.it was spur of the moment and at the time you were really being unfair.and its always you who has to create all sorts of unhappiness.i hope you realise that we all love you and we do not understnd why this keeps on happening.it affects us children even when we,re pretending we dont know anything is happening and we dont show it but deep inside we are hurt too.im not playing the blame game here but we all know who is the one taking all your shits and tantrums with patience i must add.facing it everyday for the past weeks has already been emotional draining what more with patience.thats the reason why you are the one i look up to for undying support,for your patience in handling all sorts of situation and you're the one who never fails to put us children in your prayers everyday.i love you mom.pleeaaase be strong for us,we need you.

its not been a smooth ride for me too when fickle fickle fickle minds meets unpredictable emotions.thats enough to show we're not ready.maybe you claim you are but im definitely sure i am not.That one time i really really needed you for only you had face what im gg through and you didnt show the littlest concern.well done friend.Im not expecting sympathy but it really shows so much.its even mre frustrating when you can't read in between the lines though i dont show it.i tried to understnd.im not perfect myself thats why i dont always speak my mind because i dont want to hurt anyones feeling.ive had enough of all the reasons and the excuses.i am sorry and thank you for everything and for that decision that made everything worthwhile.i know where i stand.and i hope it stays that way.

RESULTS!
omgosh.alhamdulillah it wasnt as bad as i had imagine.For geog it was worse.The subject that most of us had put most effort in it and all I got was an S. 1 frigging mark to and E and hopefully the class assignments will pull me through.im saying my results except for geog hadnt been as bad because i had expect a U for most of my subs.(say U please not ungraded.tsk).Expecting a U not because i didnt study but hairil said it was mediocre studying and even if my heart and soul was into it my expectations would still have been low.thats how low my self-esteem is and not saying im proud at it but at times i got to face up to the fact and work upon it.Thats why POA was a shocker.Got through with the skin of my ass with a D.thank god for like I said this subj was the most unexpected one.The rest has yet to be finalised though i hope itll wont bring me down for the promos.

i couldnt have pulled through without my dearest cousins,besties,friends like hairil,nurul,hafiz and maksu.For always being concern and being there when i need the shoulder to cry on.i can never thank you guys enough.

& im sorry genggongs for the last minute cancelled date.
you know,i know the real reason why.
im really sorry.
next time lah eh.

thats it for now and yet again no redang pictures
because the cd i was given could not be read.pfft.

take care everyone!

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